The Silhouette of Eternity
-for a love lost

She was asphyxiating breath
and aftermath of life and death
a waning star in sky and sea
the mere silhouette of eternity

She was the latitude of light in me
the measure of movements' immensity
begot and nourished with intensity
in moments lasting forever undone
in the silhouette of love

Lust for her was always relieved
in the nets that caught our perpetual being
faith is only kept when doubt is deceived
with the stroke so subtle it could hardly be

She was a mind of a mere fascination
formed in the storms of heavenly creation
The angels' oversight has fallen from us now
at the end of this play, remember to bow

And there is a place that still exists within
where, to, you and I had never been
She can swim through the opening of skies
She can do whatever catches her eyes
This dark silhouette no longer lies

I asked her to tell me all she had before feigned
that we might both share the blame
When she entered my soul
She burned in the flames
And I burned in her flames
I prayed that our love would somehow remain
At least for a time
This dark silhouette was mine

I asked her for her faith
but she never could see
Just how to get closer to god
or how to view eternity
Bring me closer to the shadow
I'm at the end of me
 

Fortune Teller
11/06/2013

the fortune teller told me I was ought to wait
to bide my time and make exact designs
till the world would offer my fate
and yield to me this silver plate

And in the while, I'm to search for your kind
never denying the truth its precarious pursuits
and wonder if every time I chance to find
the tables of kings, if I'm to dine

I lift my eyes up from you
I never meant for it to end this way
Never meant or love to die
yet here we stand as divided friends
defeated by arrogance, ignorance, and pride
and I wonder what ever held me together
Now I see that I was naïve
To think this love would last forever

If the fortune teller lied to me, in whatever need
it will no longer be her word which I will heed
she should have told my coming was late
that Heaven had just only locked its gate

Glowbo Show
11/06/2013

You give me a vague sense of eternity
a deeper need for love and life
in the inner shining ring of destiny
come out and dance tonight
Dance with me tonight
in the lights outlining our paths
end all of the noises and imperative maths
You tell me this thing will take us higher
but oaths broken, make a silent liar
I tell you, you'll make a liar out of me
You tell me, I'll make a liar out of you
You send me a hope far from purpose
Swear to me first, it won't all prove worthless
and there's nothing else for us
and you could always try
Now hold me as though I'm dying
cause that's the way I feel inside

The Pretties Girl
11/06/2013

The prettiest girl, I never did demand,
in giving my name, and taking your hand
in sleeping, and dreaming, in each other's arms
Feeling far, so far away from harm

See the nude truth, you have something of mine,
a piece of my soul, and this deathly design
falls upon midnight, and we are seduced
and our love is utterly reduced

Love is devotion to the other forever
once set in motion, there's no other endeavor
There is no stopping this constant lust
for no one is leaving their innate mistrust

Regarding what remains, I give you the blame
For all that we did in beauty's name
I will not hurt myself for your lost perception
or your plunge into the depth of deception

But a part remains with you, though, we may never meet
Can't you see? pain is constant, and I am week
Tell me something I don't already know
Give me back that which makes me whole
 

White Lamb
10/17/2013

They've got their laws beneath the Bible
and I've got my ideals to rival
their aim at self proclaimed survival
the faith I've seen as crass

Evil men have done harm to me
Now I must punish man
It's just my religious duty
for all they fail to understand
Hatred guides my hand

I'm waiting for the ax to fall
a white lamb bleeding pure as snow
and the world would be good
if only someone could
save the damned from descending
and the virgin hands from touching
the gold that turns to stone

My fingernails are black
with the sickness and sin of man
the poison touch of promises that
crack walls like  the skulls of rats dead,
gone down to Jesus

This is what clings to my cadaverous soul
and ever turns my eyes black
These are the things that eat my spirit whole
and this pain I will never lack

The Ice War
10/15/2013

You're standing silence beside me
Await the opening of the skies
once more, let me hold you
Let me be your new demise

Tell me you are only the frost
Feeling breathing negative space
deeply wounded and deeply lost
The touch is soothing
I can feel it moving
Reaching to erase all of us

Kiss its lips
I'm going deeper drowning
in the ice of ages
It covers my eyes
I can touch paradise
I can convert your mind

But you can't stop this pain
or this breaking of oaths inside
I can feel the rain like needles falling
to shatter upon stormy landscapes wide

I can feel the shadow's embrace
it's so cold and my spirit dies
Heed my words of consolation
Please open your eyes

"The Ghost"
10/12/2013

Don't you wholly regret and resent
this vile creature desperately sent
on stilted limbs, that withered and bled in the sin
when touched by violent winds
 saw you somewhere deeper within
If you seek what I sought
I will take you where I've been

Do you pray disintegrated you've not passed away
your memory not cast into the dark and the vast
If you can stand, come with me, take my hand
We're a leper together outcast forever
made of things not meant to last

I hope that your motive for emotion will mend
I pray that again we'll meet in the bitter sweetness of the end
After sickness and death have mortally descended
upon both you and I
May our souls never die

But if they too are not meant to endure
I'll leave with my shoe, a footprint deep in the earth
the vaguest impression, eyes closing in on mine
But what you see is unclear
But you cannot deny it
shadows move quicker than sound and sight
Deep in the illusion of life and light

If you are here, with me,
I won't let you fade into nothingness
I can't prevent your dissention or low intention
Forever feeling both torture and bliss
I give to you my heart and soul,
It I can no longer hold
the undying torture
or the uncontrollable bliss
I give you all of this
For I no longer seem to exist
 

Death Descends
10/4/2013

Oh you blind one
My illness only begun
You've thin limbs
that wither in the winds
that blows your form
around and within

Oh you're such a wild thing
Set upon burning wings
I'm melting in the darkest flames
that keeps us moving
and always remains

Oh merciful girl
if I could, I'd offer you the world
Because it is what I want for me
and what I want for you
For judgment is approaching
no matter what we do

Oh you sad one,
My crooked companion
You will never know where I've been
If you haven't counted the amount of my sin

Oh angel of fallen nature
and falling narrative
My invisible friend,
You know how it ends
You're complete and whole again
I will stay with you
I will stay until death descends
And pray that we'll make amends
that Heaven's still there
at the bitter end, that there is no hell
Mercy over justice, for those who have been
 

Speak Secrets
10/01/13

With her proficient hand and mind and craft
the witch's labors of art turned to laughs
For the heart of lust endues the path
or, in failing, finds a way of outstanding the last

All of the soldiers, of armored automatic gun,
Were set upon the wall, around the world they'd won
Their atomic math of added social wrath
Makes the outcast loath all they'd done

Who, I inquire now, is the one they call, "God"?
Is it the nature of merely feeling holy?
Both the terror and the love of a deathly course
and the fear of blood will always ever protrude
giving me the means necessary in expressing our doom

For the king of all, sits dead upon his throne,
Killed by the world he once did own
For we've yearned and we've learned,
of higher wilder things,
on shadows' wings
And now it's our time to let secrets speak


 

The Beautifully Vile
9/30/2013

Every thought, emotion, and physical sense
Bares a past a future tense
The vices of virtue and the beautifully vile
Replace an honest face with a wicked smile

I know that you'll do whatever it is you will
Incase comes the need for every special skill
Every endeavor will ever end in art
It's the process of slowly taking things apart

And as we know, the learned do this well
Only they handle the fragile
only they speak in spell
The lovely the ugly and the beautifully vile
Have always been the only thing
that could beguile my awaiting trial

And the most wicked heart is mine  you see
Its weight and size is hard to believe
The good and the evil of the beautifully vile
And I can only hope it will all be worthwhile

Heavenly Houses
9/30/2013

Come with me to these heavenly houses
Follow my footsteps into the clouds
And let's discover what it's all worth
In leaving science and the religions of the earth

And here I will feel a veering pain
That holds in its teeth my mind in iron chains
I will open my eye of the holocaust
And leave everything I've already lost

A feeling of fire ignites my insides
Forever needing the moment when it abides
And leaves me dumb and numb
a soulless beast
Or the deathliest fire that should've never been released

Never
9/28/13

This life is crass, and not meant to last
It could end, for anything, at any given time
Everything's turning into darkened shapes
Every human being is going to die

I'm riding a wave of the most delicate, violent decay
Deep in my soul, I know, everyone's slipping away
Heaven and Hell war over the sickened sky
And the nighttime comes again,
a holy manifestation
of God's greatest creation
The brilliantly dark imagination,
And unknown realism of inspiration

The thing that art will resemble in some way
The course of construction and congruent stage
When you wear that dress nothing else could matter less
And nothing else could matter more to me

This is the bottom line, the reason for this malicious crime
Someplace, lost in bitter-sweet exile,
Caught between what isn't and is worthwhile
Deep in the earth, roves a forgotten star
Looming in the ghost, never near, never far
This eye sees all and knows where you are

And I will never curse the marring of human souls
And I will never grasp what I know I'm meant to hold
 

Sleight of Hand
9/15/13

This life is divided by worth
Seen in the stars surrounding Earth
I can feel the presence of power
In the passing essence of every hour

Something elusive refines the mind
A thing that must be lost to find
Lingering souls linger in houses void
The numbest feelings are then deployed

And, ever so lightly, 
they'll pass through the window 
And embracing slightly the guilt of sorrow
They will seek omniscience in their life and lot
And the elaborate science of being forgot

Child Of Night
9/15/13

Centuries there in the vine of sin,
the Hounds of doom are grooving within,
In resounding, reveals its hidden bounds
and Layer the ground upon its hinge

Dead stars deny the mortally wounded skies
Over and around the darkness and the abyss
From breaths of life that are perfect lies
Near the memories that exist with simultaneousness

I know you are there, in the vapid vacant air
Gulled the depths of prayer, I fall into your light
and How you return love with a motionless stare
is To replace my blindness with your sight

Centuries on the spine, of all that is mine 
Oh Child of Night, make it alright
The good and the bad, of the lives we've had
Oh child of Night, I'm already dead

Angel
8/30/2013
In the lowest of light
I gain insight
No I'm not joking
with words silently spoken
You know I need access
My hands and fingers reach
Touch the stainless axes
Splurge our crooked speech

On a curve of wickedness
I find the truth within
Pleasure meant for sickness
Pleasure I want again

If you fall upon my angel
She'll lay your bourdons down
Naked as the night sky
She'll find you hanging around
Hold you close like a child
there's no space to fill
I'll embrace your darkness
You know that I will

Feel your blood circulate
the beautifully sporadic pulse
In everything I'm leaving
I know the world is false

Let the madness of the merciful
stay your beggars eye
Your entropy and salvation
Will wither wane and die
-Will live in vain and die

Nothing else exists here
and our descent is fare
Nothing again will touch me
Someone will hear my prayer
But if his hand has fallen
Upon his servant slave
I'm already forgotten
My soul you cannot save

I've felt your halo falling
Exquisite to the ground
And everyone's still calling
Giving not sight nor sound
I was taken by my angel
What only she could cast
The death had enthralled me
I no more can outlast

I've kept this safe untouched
In the affinity of truth
The everlasting repentance
Ever altering our bliss
Death is always waiting
Like a tiger waiting to strike
Your heart is like a fire
But your body is covered in ice

And life that is willing
And ever allowed to live
I can make amendments
In time I can forgive

Buried
07/30/13

There is something alluring and abstractly sweet,
That binds with its lines both hands and feet
And captures, enraptures the serenity of the soul 
In each and every quaintly equated syllable

The entirety of the self will be made null
Beneath the stars, our child eyes see all
In time you will forget the vivid things I did
But they will remain as in Egyptian pyramids

Pain will pass like the wind through the grass
The penetrable will remain penetrable
And you will never have to ask
You are the forest that burns in the night
Wings on which phantoms fly
Through and throughout each beam of light 
The invulnerably vivacious won't vindicate our sight

And understand that a man may return to the world
its dominion and sanctification of truth
but if, in his absence, the king lost his throne
Changed forms, and lost his sanity
We will never have a star light to follow,
I'm hanging from gardens
Growing through the dirt and root
Like perversion, let yourself go
Let yourself be buried deep beneath
It is the only way

The Choicest Grounds

7/27/13

 

In the choicest grounds

I find myself a waking light

Or a vapor flying throughout your town

The dead moon calls to you

The trees shade your form

 

I feel quite out of place

Quite out of rest in sleepless repose

Somehow, everything is different

But through tangled knots

There is a cold light

In the choicest grounds

 

It is the phantom of my soul

The sight of lies and tricks exposed

And you too elude my endeavors

I wane in the lights

I wane in the cloudless nights

Of million year old stars

And the gore of my heart

Will never again be right

 

I walk on nails through twisted woods

And slip on my own blood

From years ago

Pain is a constant of my soul

A part of my being

Deep down inside I know

Somehow, I know

It will never let me go

Riot Theme
5/5/2013

The proof of pleasure
will lend us leisure
then vanish forever
in the lowliest effort
of my holiness severed

Cheated gain
bares the power of pain
Relentlessly leaves its stain
Forever in my heart
there ever remaining
as I walk alone

I walk the earth
and cast no shadow
Our demise is this
My head below halos

Tell me again
you've found the night 
Bathed in the liquefied light,
Save me from that with which I must abide
the devil seed that grows inside

 And the wheels of the world
from turning over again
While everyone's lost in dreams
The hands of time and space
Rust and ruin every thing
My soul is at rest
I pray we will find death
Laid down in repose

 

 

Shared Affection

4/24/2013

 

It’s a precarious thing

When life is born

Within this bleeding

Wretched form

Secrets hidden

From minds of clay

To place their wrists

Farther away

From the tainted kiss

Of all I may.

 

Drawn like portraits

Black waters swell

With shared affection

Only time will tell

Light my every star

Hung from the skies

Meet me tonight

In stain glass eyes

 

To watch us move

In fear, just to follow

Leaving tracks in desecration

Deep in the earth hallow

For all that moves

In fallow motes, still

Remains there freely

In mine, a perverse will

The constant of time

Will vanquish your body

And then, your mind

In time.

 

A familiar distracter

Replaces the deity

But there is no denying

You could have, enthrallingly,

Curved the constant flames

Of the suns violet rays

Forsaken misfortunes

Let stars shine on our days

When they cast no light

And the road home is a maze

Put images in our sight

Return my desperate gaze

 

And home is a place

Within yourself

And love is a vase

You left on the shelf

And now I share hate

With no one else   

Vanishing Birds
03/21/2013

Death is a shape I uncover

when my hours are lost

I may have to rediscover

What it will all cost

None could cleanse these dirty eyes

None could not stop them from turning
But you could share in their demise
As everything breaks into burning
And then back into order again
Like a memory of a memory,
Forever to send
Disintegration into our eyes
It's blood for blood.
And lies for lies
This is the death of my world 
I pray I will again rise

Bacillus Anthraces

02/22/2013

I am the seeker of life and light

I wake in the world  

ask no other for insight

For the world will unfold 

It's ocean mouth

And swallow whales,

The devil chooses the ones in which he'll manifest 

I am the seeker of life and light

I pray to no god 

And there's no one inside

The universe doesn't do his will

But I'll wish for it on nights like this

And only silence will pass my lips

Receive me now, my open wound

Breathe dust and ash, 

For I was doomed.