“Treasures Scorned”

Make you no mistake 

this childlike embrace 

of all things sinful and damned 

Once felt in heart and held in hand 

Pave the future roads and holds 

In store such pleasures adorned 

And treasures scorned above and below

“Unmade and Still”

 In a dream I have seen 
how life will be for me in theme 
forlorn and forgotten plot 
for she who would no more morn 
but ever mock 
Of scarlet growth beneath the rot
Within the dirt, like raven locks 
obscuring eyes of vehement despair, 
Erase my words, displace my will 
With a shadowy stealth, 
Unmade and still 

“After Empires”

 Endure under tumbling empires 
The weight of countless years
Vehemently sought 
And effortlessly lost 
My genius plan to rise again 
Unburdened and forgot 

“Elsewhere”

Either someone is hunting me 
and someone is keeping me safe, 

or no one is hunting me 

and no one is keeping me safe. 
Either way I am comforted. 
Either way I am afraid

“Man Maker”

The sky is null, there are no stars 
To foretell what is yet to come
The cell has neither walls nor bars

To keep its secret safe above 

And all that ever will draw breath, 
Its desire, a gift to bring
This little soul lost before death,
What has it to do with anything?

It shall remain, when all is said 
With god to light its doubtful eyes
Before the living, after the dead 
It’s precious, though it never dies 

Crying for the lack of a face

Fighting in vain for my embrace 

I might forget it's toxic traits 

The morbidity of the art 
It made our fate seem easier  
In the shards of your broken heart
Beauty fixed with the macabre

Still it may know what shouldn't hurt  
Removing the stain from the skirt 
See and feel of what life is worth 

Filling this world with a blessing 

Crying for the lack of a face

Fighting in vain for my embrace

To keep its offspring oh so safe  

I might forget it’s toxic traits 

“Immortalized”

The nightmare of heartbreak strikes me down like lightning 
I stare deeply into your condemning eyes 
Ruthless to rue both the sight and the sighting 
Revealing the dead form beneath your disguise 

I found a path winding in dread through darkness 
I was a shadow, a stain on your skirt   
Never forgetting how twisted and heartless 
And how I will never return to the earth

Overcome by the beauty of the angels 
Immortalized by their lush waters of life
You who lead me to a fate which entangles 
Beneath the stars and the moon to your knife 

Vast oceans of pain reflect heavens of pleasure,
I drank of their wisdom and tumultuous faith 
‘Was never their room in the world for your treasure?’
I wondered in the mind of my wretched wraith 

Never forget how all things must be poisoned
To make you understand just how frail you are  
Protector of prisms and caster of visions 
Will never you remove this blade from my heart? 

"Tell"

 The moment of memory and imagination 
When I look to the distance in desolation  
Wondering if ever I was meant for gravity
And ask how else can I intellectualize 
A light from other dimensional eyes
I could just as soon communicate with flies 
Surrounded by your stars fixed in place 
A limitless sky and outstretched arms
This moment is a token of mere luck, 
Or the breastfed love that still I must 
Hunger for, often I've sipped from your cup
And often I've cried over the dead

"Benzodiazapine"

Fertile ground is found in decay 
Thank God every day 
Without reserve or remorse
Allow yourself to become changed 
Set a congruent course 

"To The Anar Vedas"

Abandon behaviors that are of no more use
And those who have turned on you

Learn to accept both chance and fate
The wisdom of love and the foolery of hate
Knowing all feeling will leave before long
Like the bitterest notes of the sweetest songs
Dance in the fires and laugh in the flames 
You will bring new life through your remains

"Joy I Owe"

Wrath and serenity, 
And each contrasting entity,
Outlasting the deity, 
And ascending the unknown, 
And befriending loss
The temporality that flows, 
Blending every word, 
From a mindful mortality, 
Into infinity 
And before the words are uttered 
I question whether I'm willing 
Of if I even want to return 
To the fires that require 
Every inch of my soul 
Sin will ever harm the whole 
If all my words are now null 
For there is still suffering 
For all the joy I owe 

"All Ways"

To take less than is desired 
And give more than is required
This is the way of wisdom  
To want things that couldn't exist 
And wish things that shouldn't be wished 
This is the way of folly 
To invent that which benefits man
And create that which only you can 
This the way of omniscience 
Such are the ways of a conflicted soul 
And a body quite unusual 

"Life Cycle"

How else would man serve the Lord
But through baring the weight of horror
Extracting poison from the core
Exacting an entity of energy pure
That heaven might exist once more
At another time, in another form 
For the dead deserve rest before
Their next cycle of life 

"Controversial Weaponry"

The sculptures in my heart 
What I alone have built

I alone can take apart 
You should be expelled 
From the deepest crevices
Or destroy the living 
How organically, how gigantically 
But you demand everything
There ever was or ever will be 
You've bloodied my hands 
To remove desire from your being
But the dead have reasons of their own 
And no angel kiss or devil curse 
Could ever change how I rehearse 
For my time to join them

"Silphium"

 My destiny lies beneath 
Dark celestial skies

I kiss your wretched feet 
Obstructing the passage of time 

Disrupting a length of life 
Hanging on these threads 
I am indebted to you
To bleed in your eyes 

For the prize of pain is wickedness

"Stainless"

Insert in my eyes of stone
Rays which bare the light of truth,
Where wild waters were once hewn,
I wandered their disturbed shores
To adhere my soul to yours

I was swaying in the wind, 
Before my parts were frozen cold,
To derive power from such hurt,
I traversed the wounds of the earth,

I transcended her spinning stunts 
There was enough for a thousand lives,
To end the only one that counts,
Evasion of these open skies,
And the mark of god upon my mind,
A sharped vessel to place my sin,
The filthiest whimsies came within
The imprint of evil upon my skin 

For once I had spent all tears of yore,
I happened across a cruel weapon,
And took upon my path once more,
With a name in my heart,
And a stain on my blade...

"And I Learned To Curse Your Name"

 Beneath the cold and the hollow devine
Oh the wicked stars! See how they shine!
The sleepless dreams of dead cities cry
Like those who endlessly breathlessly lie 

Where the pure of heart succumbed to pain
Let them bathe their souls in the tumultuous rain 
That they may leave neither stench nor stain
For the light of god has abandoned their frame
 
And their language wanders beyond control 
And their ideas are wrenched out from the skull 
I earned my mark and at last have laid claim
I have separated the sin from the shame 

In an unattended grave where no words escape
And the dead cities below once found their shape
Hear the bombs that set their towers aflame
As I stretch my arm with intent to maim

Set on my path with a ruthless haste 
Lips will again recall the taste  
Of words spoken to the def in the dark 
As fear and loneliness leave their mark 
I have renounced the hurt and blame
And I have learned to curse your name   

"Haunt Me"

Your orbs were flowers fully in bloom
With lips I kissed beneath the moon 
Your eyes shine a bright white-ish blue 
And your skin a liquid flowing through

Silently enraptured with all of you 
Oh my child, what am I to do? 
Lost like the knife placed in your womb 
I still hear your whore-ish moan

Echoing in the room to the bone 
What now returns to where it belongs
There where the air is thick as despair 
There where the dead still may roam 

The tormented souls inflict their own
A stab in the heart like icicles 
Push me to bed, a flicker on the water, 
And rush within me quicker and stronger 

Just because you've kept my secret this long 

Doesn't mean your truth is something they want 
But this feeling, I wish I knew what it was 
Or why your ghost still haunts me so 

"Forevermore"

 I faun upon the ruined spawn 
Shown from the gloaming, spherical dawn 
In the eye of a storm once come and gone
Withered and bittered when withdrawn 
I am the source of such sordid strength 
A morbid flight from virtue at length 
A force for another's duplicitous faith 
Blaring from the turrets to my wondering wraith 
You who possess the power to expell 
Sickness from the spirit 
And the spirit from its shell 
Holding for the scolding, some may rebel 
Oh the eyes of your tower, 
How they glower from hell!
A mark upon my murderous mind 
Twists the stick in my murderous heart 
The blood and the gore on my hands tonight
I bleed in your eyes and curse your sight
Driven insane with hate and lust 
Like an animal in an elastrator's cusp 
Burning and yearning for what only I must
Cowering like the souring of faith and trust 
Renounce the saints and savours of yore
It is you I love, it is you I adore 
Join me on the dark immortal shore
Join me in the midnight forevermore 
 

"No Waves"

The equalizing wind 
Utilize it when in pain 
by finding a source of pleasure 
as easily or intrusively accessible
As that which you wish to negate 
You'll end up with no feeling at all, 
You'll be completely removed from the current 
Only a stillness in the sea
No waves 

"Rebirth"

Our corpses feed the earth 

Become grass become dirt 
Unconsciousness after death 
Leave it fertile and unhurt
For your return, for your rebirth 
Because the sun will always turn 
Her back on those that burn 
Obliterating matter's curse
In undoing the universe
Use it for what it's worth 
For your imminent rebirth 
There are things in this world 
You should not neglect or spurn
She will collect what we earn
The shards what we left in mirth  
And I know that you will learn 
Here the meaning of rebirth 

"I Will Lead Them To Water"

 The thought comes intuitively 
An invasion of intelligence in my mind
All is but a magnificent ruin
A sight I must comprehend
Or I have manifested lies

The will to fight takes courage 
And it is courage which I lack
And my faith is weak 
But I remember the joy of victory
In allowing the self to believe 
It will come again 

Faith will become strong
Like the muscles I strain 
Like the diver learns to hold his breath 
For longer increments of time
A reaction may change
And I am no coward 

Wars waged by the righteous 
In the name of righteousness 
And hope must be fought for
For it is faded and barely visible.
There is nothing to lose,
And I won't have to do it alone,
For the masses thirst for it
...
A path has been cleared
From tonight's despair...
I will lead them to water...

"What Never Was"

 If in all false sentients be
Human duality withdraws 
And pain is to choose differently 
Beset with what never was

If god creates purposelessly 
I am unburdened by his laws 
And all becomes debauchery 
Beset with what never was 

And if I could in seance see
Without effect and without cause 
I am beset with what could be 
And what never was. 

The only meaning I am fleeing 
The meaning of all my flaws 
It is the dichotomy of believing
The finality that never was