Sleeping Spell

6/29/2012

I am wide, eyes and ears,

Once all I have disappears,

Learnt to know the sign of things

That grow old for their own meanings

And outgrow the threat of threatening

And lose their nights, unknowingly

I've learned to apply my own meanings

Love is our god who has unwritten laws

It is earned and not given, except when flaws

Force you to kill for the wrong cause

And I am always asleep when this

Demon feels my mouth to kiss

And turns the world from mine to his

And reads my mind to take my bliss

From his world to mine, or my world to his

My spirit is alive, and I'm full of wrath

I'll find my torturer, I'll seek his path.

Trust

6/26/2012

It is coincidence,

It is the existance of miracles,

It is the miracle of life

It has only one beginning, and only one end

What we call death, to some, it's a useful idea

To others, a negative effect

And still more, to others, it is the only thing 

That could possible inspire a fear that speaks
Loud enough for them to believe

But I'm the same, in multiple ways
Some times I belive in impossible things

Things no thought they could perceive

I've been there more than you could imagine

And still I've got the sign on my head

You'd better not read it, lest you be mislead

In your mind, I wonder why you'd deny

Something that appears so clear in my eye

If I've got a theory about spirituality

I'd say no more words than what I say

God is coincidence and the hope fore miracles

The hope fore life after death each day

Impossible things and an improbable denial

But for there to be miracles, there must first have been
Someone to wish inspite of their sin

Someone to believe a miracle could happen

That anything could happen at any time

Therefore, if you'd ask me,

I'd say trust no one.

Faith is a flaw

That has faith in us all

To fall further deep
Into darker sleep
And wake in the hour
They are to devour
Everything.

Glass 

6/17/12

You are made of sharp things,

Things that break when they fall,

Things that cut a gash deep,

Things we have no names to call

They have nothing for you now,

They mean nothing to us anymore,

When blood falls down the side of my hand,

You will know and understand,

That a time will come when all we think we know,

Will shatter like glass, from a 7th floor window

Sinners

I said, you would mind your own

I said that you were all I love,

You said, I was not alone,

And the moon shone down all over us.

I woke you up, another time,

And sent you through a dream of mine

I would wait for you, in the mouth of the moon,

As I send you letters on my own

The world turns round your eloquent form

I wished for a heart, another heart to be born

Inside of you to replace the one you live in
What we do for pleasure is the measure of sin

I used to search for stars out in the sky

And then, the world cursed both my eyes

I guessed two wrongs would make a right 
I wished for darkness, you gave me the night

I will always want what I hardly get
What you would give, or do anything for,

For more of the same.

Reason I can't Explain

I hate myself for reasons I can't explain

What used to be a crazy idea, is now the truest sane

Like a gray shoreline, beneath quiet skies

The moon rolling round within blood shot eyes

If I choose to follow it, wherever it goes
I will belong to a place where everyone knows
Who's behind it all, even the cutting of the wrist 

And to never put indulge in bliss like this

There's a way to bring it out of everyone

You will let them have it, they who have won

No one fights, then everyone wins.

And if there's a thing I wanted I knew

It's every precious piece I found of you

I have reason for living while completely insane

I loved you for reasons I dare not entertain
I live like most, all for dogs we cannot tame
I hate myself for reasons maybe they could explain

I know it's painful, but I'll find the feigned,
I will find a way to find a way
To find a way,
-to find a way.

Resign

6/8/12

I am lying on the ground

Without lies and without truths

I truly feel nothing

And nothing moves

Was it worth the commitment

Was it worth the time

Now that I'm a demon

Of your heart and mind

Of your commitment

And of your time

I can't help anymore

My love, I resign