When They Wake

12/20/19

When they wake up,

another day, the world turns round

we prey that there's a god

not to punish us, 

or forsake us love

If they wake again,

all labour with death in mind

What will they find?

And you deserted the earth

And your words stain and blight

Evaded without lack of sight

So dark be thy night

Thy sleepless noiseless night

As dead as the heart is noir

What coils round the darkest star

Will ever my words remind you of 
anything there was for us 

I will always wander about you

Forever haunt you

within houses 

in dreams, I cannot see

This blindness 

When you wake

a grave for thee

Binary
12/16/12

To be absurd is to learn control

a sense of mercy and math

we are a people making mock of sanity

lingering on fine details

imperatives turned to nothing at all 

I look death in the eye each lingering day

what looks back at me

like the sun set on the sea

is the ghost of my reflection

a scene designed

like my own undefined

And there are things

 you ought never bind with closely

Faun and Fall

12/12/12

In a dream last night

there were people I saw today

It was a storm so black

with overwhelming weight and rain

Like the winds of the god's

but neither light nor life could retain

only the will to punish

A god was dark and deathly formed

And in the blindness, 

everyone fell to the lower level

And then my heart was a greenhouse

and where ever I traveled 

You were always there

Falling through the roof of it

Like an idea stuck to the back of the brain

I cannot tell or refrain

give me to you 

Entralled without

the pain of fear
The fear of doubt

And then everything 
from when we had fell
and fauned in vain
like a cathedral

God's Children

11/07/12

Yes, pray,

Come income in,

In you have the time to stay

Three are places no ones has been

And there are things you can never do

The trick is to be ever uncertain

I've got the feeling this has happened before

I've got the funnies fluctuation

It turns my world round

And sends the dead to the grave

Yes, here's your chance to believe

Dirt and the devil in the eye of a needle

Wake up with out ever a silica fell

Neither in dreams, or in dreamers

Noise fills the heart and soul

When things break down

Yes, pray 

If god is a really great guy

And you've got the time to say

But there are places no one has been

And there are thing I cannot do

Things I can never do

never hold

never change

or choose

If pain is a constant

Then you are constantly you

God in the misty above

come down and claim

your children
few 

Baths

11/19/12

The millions of souls

From the now and ago

Reach me at last

And with them all at once

I want to be with you

For the paths to lead the lax

Without the worth of promise

With sharpened teeth and talons long

Tempt you like the precious tongue

Vivid is the want of food

A city in a tower to devour you

Come along and bring our fate

Put on the face they cannot break

And I will be the silenced shot

The absent rain that brings upon drought

I will set their dimming eyes

Aflame with one glance
This dead demise

Dark Step

Each time, I step,

Steps which haunt 

Every step,

I step too late

Steps to fall

Stairs ascend

In the shadows of the hall

A mirror hangs

Near the relatives on the wall

I will wake

And I will call

And the last thing

 You will see

 This stumbling embrace

Is all that's left of me

Isolation

10/22/12

Why confine to the ground

Without lies to carry, choose

Where truly I've felt nothing,

Nothing moved

What are you trying to do to me

This time, with you I will side
Without another

I will want and I will need

I will ask and you will feed me

The above your head,
And what doesn't matter, probably

What are you going to do to me
With time, in you I will confide
Without your other
You will give yourself up and bleed,
You will give them thrills of need

Whatever may happen
To our own animation
I don't see god's creation
 In my deepest isolation

Teeth In the Eye

10/21/12

Teeth in the eye 

Of thou, Garden of Eden

Speaking serpents, speak naked women

Jealous men kill 

All these things are a part of God,

In the beginning, there was a way to Heaven

And in the ending, many paths lead 

To the Devil's house

So plant in mind your secret seed 

Who is responsible

My father of fathers

My sons of the sun

Who will pay for what you've done

I am not the guilty one

Maker In Me

10/17/12

I have brought the last sacrifice

My mind turns from the worms of profanity

There are souls come from beyond death's sorrow

Hands are to be held, but mine could never have held

Had not the maker inside rebelled

You made the promise no one ever keeps

 I never feel as alive as when I open seas 

To kiss the secrets and our open veins

Just give a reason to feign with the feigned

Who will follow the rabbit in front of him

Who leads a young girl where few have been 

Who'll reach for the carrot and pull the reigns

Not I. It's my intention to entertain

Thoughts are meant to be kept and restrained

Seven times seven with no other to blame 

Please the world and the world will please thee

There's no reason to fear what you can't see 

So find the maker and learn to be
The fearless protector inside of me

Uses of Pain

10/11/12

There are many uses of pain

There are no reasons to retract or refrain

I'll change my joys, my kicks this time

I'll share it with the eternity of human kind

And I will open the wounds of a sovereign guide

To cast an illusion of god inside 

And I will spare this dead-doll day

Thine eyes met mine, tell in betrayal

Of the hours in which we've done   

With only the light of the moon
Where god should be, a shadow looms
A shadow falls upon my image in the glass
And upon wherever my every victim will be
If I have found the god inside me

I would send not a soul to the flame 

 Not while yet there are uses of pain

Slut

10/8/12

Last night, I just couldn't wait

I would stay where I wanted

Or put my feet to the floor

I said, you were always too far to reach

And that there was nothing more

Finally, I found myself

Right where we left the catch

Shaking like leaves caught in the breeze

At the bottom of oceans deep

All of this was enough to keep

At last, I am the very last one

The only survivor of last night's death

And even if I wanted you back

I know the sun will rise again

I know I'll wake the frozen touch

That turns my face to stone

Even if it was enough to care for

She'll never make it alive to the door

Though I'd let her inside 

And turn on the lights and pull 

My corpse from the rotting floor

To see you there once more

Precious love, take care of yourself

You swore there was light in the windows

Climbing up the stairs to kiss your lips

And feel your face, with trembling hands

And this time I won't watch you leave

I'll turn my head and just believe

That I am alone

Blackened Eye

10/3/12

Quickly executed,

It sees soft a silver 

Quietly the movement

Beneath the floor

You're listening, the whispering

Behind your door

Where they come to lie, 

You slept deeply pure

Come inside 
And feel the skin

And be everything you haven't been

And everything you thought you had

I don't know why
 It's not so bad

It's the fun you can always have

Worded the world,  
And then like math,

Multiply a curse, 
I shook the blame

Make it last
This time, remain

I held you in cupped hands,

I have a freedom that begins with 's'

I am none but weakness, 
I'm sad to confess

 And the poison that spit the spell
I've got a theory 
If you listen, I'll tell

You are poison 
And so am I

And there is nothing you can do

Your poisoning me as I'm poisoning you

Eyes to See

9/25/12

There is no place for things I wish secret

Only after death could free a starved spirit

To have and not to hold, 

To lose is now to gain

And everything with wings to burn

In our fire must to wane

I want you pale and I want you pure

I want to be near you forevermore

I wish for stars deployed

Upon my searching, blackened mind

And everything that breathes and grows

With the life I cannot find

For the truth is everywhere within

The lives of the living and those who have been

It depends upon just one thing

When your interest conflicts with mine

And you haven't got the time

I'll take my endorphins and learn to be

One who trains eyes to see

Zone

9/20/12

Sheila says she wants to be a star,

But they aren't stars that make the sky bright

The sky is filled with eyes at night, 

And the way to undo their infinite gaze. 

What lays upon our ending days,

Search for souls to burn and decay

There to release orphaned slave,

Christ is crucified, one death for infinity, 

But the way to Heaven is ever changing

There is another way to the place I must stay

I have a hunch and a broken blade

 Chase after shadows their secrets forbade

An eternal forecast will win our hate

And all of our reasons, kept or forsaken,

Will turn the wheels, day after day 

Encircle the stars, the eyes we create

The mind of our young trained for rape