As For Regret

11/11/2011

Forgive me

My closest friend

I cursed you the day you left

I can explain, 

We make our own choices

When I feel I've something to prove

I talk just to be heard

And when I've been sitting

Someplace too long

I move just to move

I admit without evidence

That I jump to conclusions, 

And often, when I've something to say

 Especially something you really ought to know

I don't talk

 We were friends

But I regarded you as more

I shouldn't have put you in that place

The place I have since forbidden

I should have first let you know

It was dangerous to us both

It's dangerous to be cut off,

I know you didn't know

You were half of a whole

The only one with I could share

We were parasites

If not in your mind, in mine

But you cannot deny

We were close 

For a time

I want to be free

To be cleared of past mistakes

We all have our sins

But I can't carry mine anymore

And I can't keep on questioning myself

For I have grown old and distorted

With every blow to the head 

 But I know how to lift it

Someone told me, 

I didn't figure it out

Accept the past and call it what it was

As for regret

I don't believe in it very much

We must learn from our mistakes

And do our best not to repeat them.