Black House

11/27/2011

There we are, 
At last,
Set in my mind

As time passes quickly, 
Pleasures unbind

Whatever happend?
I thought that you knew

How much you loved many,
And how I loved few

Leave me with your pleasure

Leave you with my doubts

Friend of a mystery 
And a fractured sense 
For I have become
A wretch in your eyes

And your eyes are clear

You wish I wouldn't lie 
That you might hear

How deeply I love thee,
And how deeply I fear

So sorry, but now,
I wish you were alone
For then, unhaunted,
Your ghost I'd become
In the black house 
We could have called home

I held thee devided,
For you thought that I knew

How much you loved many
But I only loved you

It does't hurt as much
Now that we're this

It mattered to me more
When truth I'd resist 

So there we are, twisted
In tainted bliss

There we are missing
Each other's kiss

Waiting for the replacing 
To unknot our fist

Memories held closely
Though apart we exist

Coin Toss

11/24/2011

Two sides of a coin

Heads or tails

What will it be?

Choose your side

I'll choose my side

Insignificance and fate

Loss and gain

Know that it wasn't me

For I can never believe

More than half of a whole

In things that are chance

The things that break

Blind as the choice

Like the dead shining eye

That spins in my mind

Imagine the time

Of every future I could have

Held in my hand

Your last seconds on Earth

Where my spirit will wander

Until I decide

Heads or tails?

A Better Plan

11/11/2011

Do you have a better plan?

Tell me and I will listen

You can rewrite the rules

You can subtract verses from the Bible 

But I don't believe it will help much

I don't believe anyone can solve the equation

Not with this mind, maybe

We weren't meant for such thought

Any amendment you can make

You can't back.

Prove me wrong

All in theory

There is but one truth

Don't fool yourself

Faith is what we all require

You can learn to have faith

in things that aren't true

Keep an open mind

If there exists any doubt

Tear down your beliefs

Like the tower of babble

Learn to have faith so you can

Again close your mind

Like folded hands

A guarded temple

That's what it is to have true faith

To have peace within

A sacred place

A place that can be destroyed

Only when you allow it. 

If God alone can give you faith

I have felt his hands

I have a hard time reading

I try to guard my temple

To not ask the wrong people 

The wrong questions

At the wrong time 

In the wrong places.

You have to recognize a lie 

When you hear one

They're everywhere

Don't shun the facts

We're all still relevant

Hope is there

If you can find it.

And if you can find it,

Don't trade it for anything

Because it's the most precious thing

 in the entire revolving world

It is all you will ever need

It is that which God alone can give

"Fear not, Only Believe."

As For Regret

11/11/2011

Forgive me

My closest friend

I cursed you the day you left

I can explain, 

We make our own choices

When I feel I've something to prove

I talk just to be heard

And when I've been sitting

Someplace too long

I move just to move

I admit without evidence

That I jump to conclusions, 

And often, when I've something to say

 Especially something you really ought to know

I don't talk

 We were friends

But I regarded you as more

I shouldn't have put you in that place

The place I have since forbidden

I should have first let you know

It was dangerous to us both

It's dangerous to be cut off,

I know you didn't know

You were half of a whole

The only one with I could share

We were parasites

If not in your mind, in mine

But you cannot deny

We were close 

For a time

I want to be free

To be cleared of past mistakes

We all have our sins

But I can't carry mine anymore

And I can't keep on questioning myself

For I have grown old and distorted

With every blow to the head 

 But I know how to lift it

Someone told me, 

I didn't figure it out

Accept the past and call it what it was

As for regret

I don't believe in it very much

We must learn from our mistakes

And do our best not to repeat them.