"Tell"

 The moment of memory and imagination 
When I look to the distance in desolation  
Wondering if ever I was meant for gravity
And ask how else can I intellectualize 
A light from other dimensional eyes
I could just as soon communicate with flies 
Surrounded by your stars fixed in place 
A limitless sky and outstretched arms
This moment is a token of mere luck, 
Or the breastfed love that still I must 
Hunger for, often I've sipped from your cup
And often I've cried over the dead

"Benzodiazapine"

Fertile ground is found in decay 
Thank God every day 
Without reserve or remorse
Allow yourself to become changed 
Set a congruent course 

"To The Anar Vedas"

Abandon behaviors that are of no more use
And those who have turned on you

Learn to accept both chance and fate
The wisdom of love and the foolery of hate
Knowing all feeling will leave before long
Like the bitterest notes of the sweetest songs
Dance in the fires and laugh in the flames 
You will bring new life through your remains

"Joy I Owe"

Wrath and serenity, 
And each contrasting entity,
Outlasting the deity, 
And ascending the unknown, 
And befriending loss
The temporality that flows, 
Blending every word, 
From a mindful mortality, 
Into infinity 
And before the words are uttered 
I question whether I'm willing 
Of if I even want to return 
To the fires that require 
Every inch of my soul 
Sin will ever harm the whole 
If all my words are now null 
For there is still suffering 
For all the joy I owe 

"All Ways"

To take less than is desired 
And give more than is required
This is the way of wisdom  
To want things that couldn't exist 
And wish things that shouldn't be wished 
This is the way of folly 
To invent that which benefits man
And create that which only you can 
This the way of omniscience 
Such are the ways of a conflicted soul 
And a body quite unusual 

"Life Cycle"

How else would man serve the Lord
But through baring the weight of horror
Extracting poison from the core
Exacting an entity of energy pure
That heaven might exist once more
At another time, in another form 
For the dead deserve rest before
Their next cycle of life 

"Controversial Weaponry"

The sculptures in my heart 
What I alone have built

I alone can take apart 
You should be expelled 
From the deepest crevices
Or destroy the living 
How organically, how gigantically 
But you demand everything
There ever was or ever will be 
You've bloodied my hands 
To remove desire from your being
But the dead have reasons of their own 
And no angel kiss or devil curse 
Could ever change how I rehearse 
For my time to join them

"Silphium"

 My destiny lies beneath 
Dark celestial skies

I kiss your wretched feet 
Obstructing the passage of time 

Disrupting a length of life 
Hanging on these threads 
I am indebted to you
To bleed in your eyes 

For the prize of pain is wickedness

"Stainless"

Insert in my eyes of stone
Rays which bare the light of truth,
Where wild waters were once hewn,
I wandered their disturbed shores
To adhere my soul to yours

I was swaying in the wind, 
Before my parts were frozen cold,
To derive power from such hurt,
I traversed the wounds of the earth,

I transcended her spinning stunts 
There was enough for a thousand lives,
To end the only one that counts,
Evasion of these open skies,
And the mark of god upon my mind,
A sharped vessel to place my sin,
The filthiest whimsies came within
The imprint of evil upon my skin 

For once I had spent all tears of yore,
I happened across a cruel weapon,
And took upon my path once more,
With a name in my heart,
And a stain on my blade...

"And I Learned To Curse Your Name"

 Beneath the cold and the hollow devine
Oh the wicked stars! See how they shine!
The sleepless dreams of dead cities cry
Like those who endlessly breathlessly lie 

Where the pure of heart succumbed to pain
Let them bathe their souls in the tumultuous rain 
That they may leave neither stench nor stain
For the light of god has abandoned their frame
 
And their language wanders beyond control 
And their ideas are wrenched out from the skull 
I earned my mark and at last have laid claim
I have separated the sin from the shame 

In an unattended grave where no words escape
And the dead cities below once found their shape
Hear the bombs that set their towers aflame
As I stretch my arm with intent to maim

Set on my path with a ruthless haste 
Lips will again recall the taste  
Of words spoken to the def in the dark 
As fear and loneliness leave their mark 
I have renounced the hurt and blame
And I have learned to curse your name   

"Haunt Me"

Your orbs were flowers fully in bloom
With lips I kissed beneath the moon 
Your eyes shine a bright white-ish blue 
And your skin a liquid flowing through

Silently enraptured with all of you 
Oh my child, what am I to do? 
Lost like the knife placed in your womb 
I still hear your whore-ish moan

Echoing in the room to the bone 
What now returns to where it belongs
There where the air is thick as despair 
There where the dead still may roam 

The tormented souls inflict their own
A stab in the heart like icicles 
Push me to bed, a flicker on the water, 
And rush within me quicker and stronger 

Just because you've kept my secret this long 

Doesn't mean your truth is something they want 
But this feeling, I wish I knew what it was 
Or why your ghost still haunts me so