Empty Rooms

5/25

There is a house,
An imaginary hour,
There is a girl ,
And my demons found her,
And in this house, there was a room
In this room, there was a window.
I used the diamond hand
I stole from the diamond man
To cut my way into 
What used to be your room.


Tipping on our glass,
I fell into our darkness,
Rubies fell on our ground
The rose and thorn of our silence
I remember holding onto you,
Lost my every senses too
Forever you're the only cure
For the disease that takes ahold of me
Can't you see?

The entire world could go up in flames,

Nothing would matter,

Nothing would change,

I give in again to black obsession,

Like a circle,

Rolling through time
My most precious possession

My malevolent crime.

Although I want to be with you always,

All things were made to take their place
In some house there will be a room

Where you can safely stay,
But tonight I don't want a future
I don't want to see my own face
Because in this room
Where you used to be
Now, only shadows,
Ghosts, and me.

The Angel's Wound

5/25

You were my only undying light,

You would not fail me, when cast the night,

I was the mastermind, I will never endow,
The undoing of a method I have allowed.

I'm somewhere beneath the back of your mind,

In a place, if searched for, you will find,

Caught from the above, and forced to love
For a slice of mortal time,

In a wold of infectious grime
They have seven million explanations
For why I cannot cannot exist
But all that is noise
I am real
I am this 

I lost my head in a world of joys

Faces looked brighter on girls and boys

I needed you not, this is my regret

I need you now more than I can get

Then, through the veil of your eyes,

A thousand winters opened,

Then closed with a single, delicate motion

A strange thing, I thought,

Like a strike of fascination.

You were my life 
and my salvation.
I feared you.

To Breathe Dirt

All things we must use
All things we were made to abuse
Do you hear my whispering voice?

The memory of you,
Laughing at the things we said
 Underneath Christmas lights
Became nightmares of violence
that ate away at my years
It makes a good man cruel
When his joys turn to fears


You taught me how to love

I love you still and I always will
But there, at the end
I learned how to hate completely
Everything that breathes 
and grows on God's earth.


What if a god had too many children to care for?
What if we are only brought up to fall?

Maybe there is no way of knowing
 And maybe the search matters least of all


But when we meet, and when we touch
All things pass away into dust
You taught me how to feel and now

That I hurt, I want to teach you how
To breathe dirt.

Imaginary Hours

I remember forgetting

Here as we're shredding

Years into confetti 

And my body to spaghetti

I'm a ocean ship wreck

A self inflicted wound

But who at all cares?

I'm the vampire's suck

I'm your absent necessity

Remember me?
Playing dead beneath the sun?
Remember me?

The Imaginary one?

Tree Hangers

5/25

I know false hope,

Over and through my eyes
Around my neck
Hung on a tree with rope

All I wanted was to cut you free

From the cords that hung you from the neck,

The cords that swung you close to me,

When first we met
there for the last time

I had a cutting blade
I fell to the ground
Fearing nothing, not even god
I found my place
But found no rest
Dead men tell no tales
And fingurs examined
I knew what I'd done
What I'd chosen

So it's love I lose,

Day by day,

Night by night,

For time and opinions to slight

My death at their delight

I walk on a fire

As you are in flames

Needing nothing that to me pertains

How can you break and be so desired?

I brought you where I could call you dearest

To take my last look

Everything fades into something else

I am hanging on the tree next to yours

Rotting with murderers, 

Thieves and Whores

Your choice is your choice

And you will never understand

Why you tried to kill

A lifeless man

I cut you down from where you hung, 

Not the other way around
I taught you that there's no other ground
Than the one to which we're bound
And if I sliced you, when I set you free,
I hope I hurt you more than you hurt me.

Atrocity 

5/21

I am the vampire's suck

Tonight, you are my prey

Tonight you are my inspiration

I want to drink your blood

And eat your body whole

Safely set in a forest at night,

I will deeper bury my soul

And then, just as you bleed

Vampires come out to feed

I will find it again, 

The one who sends shadows

In the sunrise to bend

Your tears I'll breathe

As I leave your side

With all I adored

For I was defied

But whatever,

Stew turned to stone,

Men turned to animals,

Animals turned to food

I don't know magic

But I've known you

That nothing can separate

Me from the things I hate

The way you do

Hallucination

5/12

I hold your hands-

your hands in mine

So close to me

But it's closing time.

The street is cold,

The stars dolefully shine,

As I hold your heart

and soul to mine

Nothing moves

What we must choose,

You leave to me

So as to prove

The only voice that matters at all

Is the one you can't hear,

The one you can't call.

But you are the one doing this

Looking through the mirror

The glass is cold like its kiss

Goodbye, my best

-My best find yet,

My best friend,

and my best bet

Go without tears

And leave without fear
There is nothing I would do
If things end in years

I see things clearer

I learn took much

I like everything,

Everything too much

For a second, you turn,
and on me you breathe
My mind is lost
but I want to believe

The Sharpest Knives

5/12

We are the sharpest knives,

The exoskeleton of daily life

We are the darkest shade,

The light no longer obeyed

And some will have to pay the price

For the debt we will leave

We guide, are guided on half advice

And half that we believe

We are the sharpest knives 

We have our disguises

The nothing of nowhere

The negative space

Things no one uses

The death of one afraid

Some need to name the price they  pay

But there is no other balance than zero

Where everyone stands,

We will fall,
Until the sky's set fallow,

From the glass of the roof,

To the roof of the ground,

What I once loved,
What I once found


Cast a spell
And trick me ever since
Now, only doubt,
Where you did exist


And you did exist
And somewhere betwixt
My mind and my master
I knew to be this
For you, I will always keep a room
A place in you could grow old
But time stands still
When I'm in your room
And until you return
There will many torturers loom