Deep Sleep

Brought from the northern sun,

Taught this since we were young,

Quietly climb from stolen beds,

Watch the stars light all a mess,

If you believe then it must be true

Your guess is only as good as mine

 Born to the world, not meant to know

Only I think we would profit from 

Finding every secret this world withholds 

Turning back, not turning to stone

None you call will follow anymore,

Because back then I was asking for, 

Forgiveness though already pure,

I put my head deeper in 

But the pillow still smelt of sin

Bedroom

If I touch your face, 

Will you believe we are here

Somewhere in my parent's house, 

In the room of mirrors

I've invited you again,

To visit me close, 

Cutting the veil,

It's a violent thing

-And the dreams begin 

to blend with reality

These reflections aren't true to life,

But they're all I now see

She lingers above

I linger below

I'd burn in your form to be

Three walls of glass 

Reaching a new height.

"Lay still this night 

As the angel passes softly through,

And falls all over you."

Regret

Undo all I've done

Unsay all I've said

Let me forget

Put me to bed

Deaf and Dumb

I am hearing only noise,

In the crowded crystal street,

The People are loud and I can't seem

To answer though you're looking at me.

Lets move into the house,

And poise the shining sun,

With false faces and hands away from them

To distinguish between the real and the unreal.

I'm learning to be brave,

I'm learning all over again,

The words I swallow are impossible,

So it's here that you'll meet me alone

What is it you crave?

Whatever it is that you want,

I'll gibe thought he giving is impossible,

So it's here you'll meet me alone.

Like the wall that surround,

Come crumbling, come crashing down

The weight will surely smother us,

Falling through the floor to the rooms below.

And I can't get a grip,

Can't help you if you slip

For all the world I can't close my eyes,

to distinguish between the real and the unreal.

Everything I Touch Is a Weapon

Everything I touch is a weapon for with 

To destroy the beauty you've formed,

From hands and feet, I bleed rivers,

For to sail these quiet obsessions

On nothing with my wandering soul,

To the stupidest city, 

You cut a deeper hole.  

Smothered in time, lost under blankets, 

With magic I sew the contours broken 

But routine is a sadness that follows never leading,

And if I ask you in secret on days like this,

Will I see you closely, and you still exist?

For all my inabilities have risen against me

Like a giant wave in the fucking ocean,

Falling down upon my cities downed,

Falling to drown in hopes of belonging

And if I could only get inside your skull,

I would learn to become everything you desire,

The perfect man,

I would swim through the tears in your eyes,

I would tell no more lies.

There Will You Be With Me Always

Seeing you sketched upon the paper window,

Dancing crooked lines at no one's funeral

With eyes already doused, it makes me more sleepy,

Here we will never grow old

Like an image in water

Near a drowning child

The remembering is bleak as death

And the root of my shame,

Running down my face to the deep earth devoid,

Where I don't think I will wake again,

Because this ruin is a dream that doesn't end

Passing painless, and I know, 

There will you be with me always.

Being

We will fall out of being in a wet shower of stars,

Outlining brilliant eyes in a desolate sky,

We will cast no veil, and you knew it well, 

Tucked quietly in bed, while destined to die.

You held the hand of one I don't trust

He lead you beside still waters, but I burst

Into the void, where jaws meet skin,

And a century of souls will join me therein. 

Stoop

When art is hollow,

And emotions dead,

Do not wallow,

Just go to bed. 

Only Threats

Pearl water drops circle your waist and round your neck

The floor beneath our feet is sifting like milk

Climb the pillars that held dead bridges, 

Beneath them, sharp waves, like as if made of glass 

And all the vague images stare through as they pass

Dead bodies in the water, dead souls on the bridge,

Both man and nature wither, eyes undress eyes 

And you knew I was just obeying the rules, 

Just playing the part,

But it's the longest time to kill regret and shame

Prove Me Not An Imbecile

Today nothing matters

Nothing is pure or impure

And I do not fear the truth

Because I'm with you

Left all of my reasons

All memories reposed

The feigned and forgotten

In emptied arms you I fold

Pure Eyes


Azure skies, azure eyes

To gaze is your demise

Becoming weak, becoming small 

Disappear beneath it all

Lost to find, to stand in place

Wake the past of dry embrace

Begging you, please understand

While shushing violence in my hand

But idiocy will break the window 

Cut the colors in the rainbow

Drain the blood from the river

And suffocate me into buying

One fear of life to keep me dying

Ascending Black Staircase

The edge of the ice cutting me to pieces

The clean air frozen of the streets white above 

In hotel rooms, in skyscrapers, the glass bound walls

Till blue of the face and slow circulating blood

Warm you my heart, vibrations felt, the quiet

To seem so enchanted, so sparkling snowflakes

Drifter spirit, weightless, you may have it for nothing

Only keep your damn forgiveness from the former of me

Glass staircase, black staircase, a light step on thee.

"Mortal"

In the pouring rain drops falling 

Over everything flat and curved

Round to catch the eye globe watching

Pierced by one million razor sharp ends

Washed away in the rivers laughing

Headlights shining four feet beneath

The wind, the outside, the blue-ish colors

We, the wreckage, the bridge, the violence

Shaped tot he moment, lying alone.

"Town of Ghosts"

When I get home at the end of the day,

My house will remind me of where I haven't been 

I'll be looking for no one within the familiar walls 

And I'll feel nothing when I get in.

But I'll think of you, my deepest fascination

The darkest doors locked only to protect you

It is for you, and you alone I wish to remain

But it all turns black just to bitter my shame.

The pools beneath the window reflecting pale faces,

Cold hands, the quiet voices, and you've had your stay

so you get in your car and shoot the sapphire headlights

Into the ghost  people passing away

I am standing in the distance, far faded behind,

Wondering when you'll return to these towns

And if I'll still be around.

"Endorphins"

You jump into a waterfall

And disappear in mist and foam

I find your body afloat below

Are you only sleeping? 

Might I wake you?

Or would you rather I left you dream?

A motionless girl in motionless stream.

"Embryo"

Take me to the city, Love

That's where I want to be

Because it is so dull at home

And nothing pleasures me

I am not afraid and though

These memories weigh me down,

For the night we can go

And leave them with the town

For I have become restless, Love

I cannot stand to stay

So let us go quickly now, 

Together and fade away

Into the crowds that fill the street

Through both the day and night

Into the perpetual energy,

And colored, electric light

from my window I can see

The tips of the towers tall

Like arms reaching fore Heaven's knee 

And Heaven's sending as if to fall

Lightning bolts and a driving rain

To the sleepless city below

but tonight, no fear, He won't explain

So quickly, Love let us go.

"Need Will Drive Us Out"

You are quiet as death, my friend

I have found the same, my friend

My sorry face and hands will bend

Fate for this emptiness between

If it's neither treasure to you, Dear,

Tell me what you're still doing here

Let your heart become a stone well, a mirror

Deep as the universe

For in you I see every light in the sky,

With every color of the rainbow's dye,

Like a waterfall flowing to purify,

And all so thrilling I could stay.

And whenever I see you, wherever, somehow,

We are standing on sunbeams in clouds

With less than a drop of feral doubt

That the darkest need will drive us out.

Enthrall

You must've enthralled me,
Beside the doors of Hell,

I would've heard familiar voices 
But everyone was sleeping

Silent, without blinking, 
I fall into its hands,

Evasion is no option,
What I wished for now is

I stay to watch the celebration 
My head is a sack of watery noodles

Each second is a century 
While wondering whether

I should go back to my room, 
Or tell you my every secret

But in death I find no purpose
As a ghost I am not seen
But you look pretty in the dark

Just before losing my head, 
your car lights blink,

And you drive away, into pieces,
Before I can decide

Left here alone, 
Still trying to think

All to disappear
 In in the blackest skies

On my way back I take a shortcut

A shortcut through many misfortunes
I know what follows will need some time

I won't wait for it to pass through me and stagger

My mess of a memory 
With an intoxication blow

What is it?
I've forgotten.
You and all the devils

We are all sinners 
And I can recognize an obsession

The noise! 
O the noise of my imminent annihilation!

But there's a warmth so near 
I can almost touch

And what if this feeling isn't bad?
Was it ever?

I know on this earth nothing last for long

Even feelings watched after in time will die

And I understand this love is grown only too shy

But as long as the light is dead from above,

As long as I'm enthralled by this view of a girl

And as long as I believe it is she whom I love,

May they never find me.